Newman Family: July 2010

I'm sorry I haven't updated our family blog for so long! Life has been so busy!

I just spoke in sacrament a couple weeks ago on trials and adversity and I felt like I wanted to share this with my friends and family as well.

I know most of you know what a long year it has been for us. About a year ago I was in a place of such sadness, and hopelessness that I didn't think happiness would ever fill my heart again. Sometimes you plan your life out, and you expect it to go just as planned and be perfect. Then all of a sudden your faced with trials that you would have never in a million years thought you would ever be faced with. It's taken me a while to finally realize that we will each face times of difficulty, and the question is not when we will face them but how we face them.

My favorite song is Where Can I Turn for Peace. I listened to this song over and over and over when I needed to feel comfort.

Where Can I turn for peace,
Where is my solace when other sources cease to make me whole.
When with a wounded heart, anger, or malice,
I draw myself apart, searching my soul

Where, when my aching grows,
Where when I languish,
Where, in my need to know, where can I run?
Where is the quiet hand to calm my anguish?
Who, who can understand
He, only One.

He answers privately,
Reaches my reaching,
In my Gethsemane,
Savior and Friend
Gentle the peace he finds
for my beseeching.
Constant he is and kind
Love without end.

This past year, even though it has been bumpy, I have learned and grown more than I could have ever even imagined. I am happy to say that I have graduated school as a medical esthetician and accepted a great job with a company called Glymed Plus as the colorado Rep. I have met so many amazing people who have enriched and blessed my life forever. I am more independent and much more humble. I am a better mother. I cannot explain in words the love I have for my sweet children. We have laughed together, cried together and been angry together. I live for the ballet recitals, baseball games and dancing around the kitchen to music while we clean. Nothing else matters but the simple things in life. Their little spirits keep me going and I love being their mommy! I can't wait for the day when Heavenly Father blesses me with more children...yes, I said more children! Most importantly, I have developed a personal relationship with my Heavenly Father that I had not known before. I appreciate aspects of the gospel and the atonement that I did not understand before. I have a testimony of the gospel of Jesus Christ and without it I would not know true happiness. Life is good and I am simply happy. I know the Lord has a plan for me. I obviously look forward to the day when a righteous man will accept me and my imperfections and I can be married again. Until then, I will be patient and live life to its fullest!

Cassidy in her ballet recital. She was recently in Pinocchio and just tried out and made show choir at her theater school.